Almost time

Almost time!!! We go in tomorrow night to start the induction process! I'm scared/excited/happy/sad all at the same time! 

38 weeks!!

I have been trying to spend as much time as possible with my girls these last few days, especially Allie Kate who seems to be very nervous about mommy going to the hospital :-(

We had a special breakfast at Waffle House on Monday morning...just me and her before school "our date" as she called it :) she has been so sweet and loving and constantly reminding me that she loves me...which makes me happy but sad at the same time! 

Sweet girl at Waffle House :)

Soon having a baby in a few days and my other baby thinks she is a big girl and wears a pony...

This sweet girl melts my heart! She is just at the cutest little age :)

After school me and Allie Kate got our toes done and she was so sweet and such a big girl :) I love this girl to pieces!!! My little bestie :) she didn't stop talking the entire time we were there!

Excited about her pink sparkles!!

Dance class :)

She asked me before school today if I wanted to take her picture ;) she knows me well!

I got her a fur vest from target today and when she saw it she was sooooo excited! She kept calling it a "she" and even insisted on wearing "her" to dinner at Nikki's where "she" had her own chair! Haha! I had to hide "fluffy" (her name) because she started sneezing and getting stuffy from loving on her new vest. This girl is a trip! 

I love my sweet girls with every bit of my heart and all I want is to be a great momma to them! (And soon to baby brother :)

Bedrooms and getting ready for baby boy!

The past few weeks have been busy with school starting back, dance starting back, doctor appointments, and trying to get everything ready for baby Hudson to make his appearance :)

these cuties love that they get to see each other at school :)

Allie Kate started dance class back and this year she is taking 2 different classes…tap/ballet/jazz combo and the other is clogging. We also moved to night classes (the past two years she has done day classes so this is going to be an adjustment). Allie was excited to start back and she requested her sister wear a dance leotard too and take pictures :) sweet girls!

I had my 37 week doctor appointment where we had an ultrasound to see how big baby boy was estimated to be. My belly has been measuring 3-5 weeks ahead consistently since 28 or 29 weeks. Baby Hudson was estimated to weight (at 37 weeks) 8lbs 1oz, I also have a condition where I have extra amniotic fluid making me much larger…I know, lucky me! Since Hudson is measuring on the large side (especially his head…yikes!) and I have extra fluid my doctor has decided to induce me at 38.5 weeks (Thurs, August 28th).

We finally finished baby boys bedroom! I love how it turned out! Not too babyish and all boy :)

The girls loved that I was taking pictures of baby brothers room and just had to be in a few :)

See...they aren't always wearing cute clothes and bow ;)

I have never posted pictures of my girls room together so here it is….

They are still doing great sharing a room! Better than I could have asked for and I honestly think if we tried to separate them now into their own rooms they wouldn't want to!

We are trying to spend time as our little family of 4 this weekend so we took the girls to the Hands on Museum of Tuscaloosa today. It was so fun and the girls LOVE it :) We enjoyed a nice day together…complete with a dance party before bed!

Smooshing her sweet happy face on the dirty glass! (But hey...we are all on antibiotics for walking pneumonia anyways so smoosh away sweet girl). 

I have been so emotional about having Hudson…I am such a cry baby these days! I love my girls so much and I just look at them and am so thankful and don’t want our whole worlds to change. I know once I see my sweet baby boy I will be so in love it won’t seem that I am taking so much attention away from my girls but for now I just look at their little faces and I feel guilty :(  Especially little Ava, she is still such a baby and I am sad that she will have to grow up a little once he is born. Yes…I am a blubbering mess! I just love my girls more than life and I want the best for them and I want to be the best momma to them I can be!

Missing someone special

My sweet rue, 

      

      Oh how I miss you! I miss you all the time in small moments when something reminds me of you but it's the times when something big is about to happen that I find myself looking for you. What I would give to have you here again! You were so special to me...the word grandmother just doesn't seem special enough to explain what you were to me. You always made me feel and believe I was so special and important and everyone needs someone like you in their life! 

You are my example when I think of the best person someone could be and it makes me smile and breaks my heart all at the same time because I know I will never be as wonderful as you! But I don't think anyone will ever be (at least in my eyes). I honestly don't think I will ever meet another person that is as selfless, kind, loving, and just all together good as you. 

The way you loved The Lord makes me cry. I have so many memories of you telling me "if it's The Lord's will" or "the lord knows Ashley, He'll never leave you" or "he's not forgot about you" .... Or when I was at your house terrified of the tornado warning and I asked you "aren't you scared?" And you calmy said "nah Ash, why the Lord's driving that thing." You had real faith...even when things were scary or bad you stood firm. 

I miss you running up to my room and bursting through the door waking me up on a Saturday morning squealing because you were so excited to see me. Then letting me get all the spare change out of your car...it's the little goofy things I miss so much. Like you teaching me to drive in your car, peeling a whole cantaloupe and eating it, you rubbing my back and hair while I went to sleep, the way you'd tell me "you girls are beautiful and it's not because your mine, sorry to tell ya." Or the time me and Heath came in from a Tim McGraw concert at 12am and mentioned we were hungry so you just whipped us up some fried chicken and greasy taters...then said "this'll have to do," like you were feeding us a sandwich or something. :)

I grieve the fact that you couldn't meet my girls. It's not fair because I know you would adore them. And I know they would LOVE you! Allie Kate would make you laugh until you cried and we would get to hear a lot of "oh, Lord" and "oh no Hun, don't say that!" Because she is just like me and I got to hear it all the time :)

Even though Allie has never met you she knows your name and asks me questions about you..."do you miss her momma?" "Are you gonna hug your rue when you get to heaven"...

I'm also scared of what you'd think of me as a mom because while I know you would still love me you told is how it was as would let me know it if you didnt like something. And I'm pretty sure my little girls would be the new apple of your eye and I'd be their mean old momma that made them take a bath when "it isn't hurtin a thing that they don't have one this time." 

You aren't just special to me...anytime I talk about you or just randomly Heath will say "I wish your rue was here, we'd make her come stay with us" or "she was the sweetest lady." Anyone who spent 5 minutes with you loved you. 

I guess as I prepare everything for baby boy to come I find myself missing you a little extra wishing on everything you were still here! But I also know you wouldn't come back even if you could because you are celebrating in heaven. I guess dreams will have to do for now where I get to see you often :) I love and miss you my sweet rue. 

Love, 

Your aysh

Meet the teacher and first day of 4k :)

We had orientation for 4k this past week and Allie Kate was SO excited to get to go see her teachers (Mrs. Lori and Mrs. Jennifer) and all of her friends! She knows most of the kids in her class this year and I am so thankful that she is so happy to start school back!

She was excited to see her buddy Collin :)

Allie Kate with her new teacher Mrs. Lori

Mrs. Jennifer and Mrs. Lori

I practically had to drag my little social butterfly away from orientation and her friends! 

We also moved up in our Sunday school classes and it was so funny to see Ava Grace in an actual class where they sit at little tables and eat crackers instead of baby swings and cribs lining the walls! My baby is growing up!

Today was Allie Kate's first day of 4k and she was so excited and ready to start back school (which makes this momma SO happy...watching your kid walk in crying is no fun!). She picked out her own outfit and woke up early and was so sweet while getting ready! I just can't believe how big my sweet girl is getting! She kept saying "We get to take field trips!"

She walked straight in put her back pack in her little cubby and sat in her chair and I took a few pics and gave her a hug and a kiss and walked out and she was as happy as can be! 

Baby girl knows how to pose!!!

Obsessed with this little beauty!

Look who else is getting to be a big girl :) Brynnen started 3k today!!! These sweet cousins were so excited to be going to the same school :)

When I picked Allie Kate up from school she was waving at me from carline with the sweetest smile on her face :) When she got in the car she said "I had the best first day!" and she turned to her teacher and said :I had a great first day with you!" 

I am so proud of my sweet girl and I love that she is having a good time and learning (not only school stuff but about Jesus and the Bible). BUT I was sad when she wasn't with me! I found myself wanting to tell her something or show her something! I love my sweet little bestie!